Where’d you go my friend?
Won’t you please come back again?
I miss the times that we used to have
Used to crack jokes make everyone laugh
Little sister once looked up to you
Back in high school all the good you went through
But it went from joining every club and good grades
To self destructive parties and drug raids
How did you even come this far?
Look in the mirror – can’t recognize who you are
Everything was set up for you man
Flipped the board with the perfect game plan
Coulda got your fam and friends back together
But they’ve all moved on you still aren’t better
You believe in yourself one day
Turns to a decade wasted away
With absolutely nothing to show
But a big mouth and inflated ego
Strange you spend nights crying
They ask what’s wrong and you end up lying
Why are you doing this to yourself Ali?
Used to have fun! Didn’t need the molly…
Used to say you’d never end up in jail
Call father sobbing hoping he’d post the bail
Once cried laughing saying “it’ll never be me!”
Cried so many fake tears can’t see clearly
Promise today will be the forward turning point!
…Fail yet again and turn back to the joint
That joke of a charade – it didn’t last
You refused to grow up and learn from the past
Grave mistakes you made. The future is the cost that’s the price you paid
Never thought you’d run and hide
Never thought you’d fantasize
I am just a just a total mess of regret
Hoping all my addict friends get out forget
None of those feelings were real
Fueled my tank – had to lie and steal
I hope they all forgive me
Doubt this curse I’ll ever break free
To the real ones I still love you all
Sorry you had to witness my pathetic fall
I took you all for granted
Self destructive seeds that I planted
I can tell you’re all weary of me
I party hard and go a little too crazy
Absolutely no impulse control
If I die alone I’ll deserve the toll
Broken family; my go-to excuse
Decades wasted man! What’s the fucking use?
I know exactly where the train is headed
My past wrecks are now embedded
I’ve become the virus stuck in the head,
Just a parasite… I’m better off dead
I’m a psychopath that’s self aware
One day I give a shit followed by an “I don’t care!”
I just can’t go on like this anymore
Lost so many things stop tallying score
Try to lie that I’m no criminal
But everything I do is shadily subliminal
They say people don’t change ali – it’s too late.
Gathered so many failures – now the pressure’s way too great
Fuck it. Dunno if I even tried
Somewhere in the past; the real Ali died.
I wrote this song over Fort Minor‘s “Where’d You Go?”One day I will record over it. I’d actually love to create this one with Mr. Shinoda. If I ever record or even just play it with him… I can instantaneously die a happy person.
For now just enjoy my rock bottom foundations.
I hate this song for readable reasons.
I absolutely loathe Melanchali.